Right into it: the fact that it’s never-ending. This idea stirs all the butterflies in my stomach. I can physically feel the excitement knowing that there’s always something to learn and experience. This immortality is what I’ve been after for a very long time. I remember the exact moment I realized this life, this specific format, was finite. And it hit me hard. All I could do was cry and cry. In between tears, I would choose the same thought. The same one… focusing on it with everything I had. Then, I would cry some more.
After going through this cycle for what seemed like ages, I ask “Then, what is the point of all this?”. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I got it… and I still get it every single day. Because the point of all this changes in details. Though, it remains the same in essence – to live my freaking life!!!
Every day, I realize something new about me, about life, about the world. My perspective changed and continues to change as I grow each day. Sometimes, it’s not even because of something external… ok, most times it’s not. Awareness has made the most impact in my life. Things like catching myself whenever my mind would wander and I was driving… what is that? Those moments of clarity and presence became more frequent.
After a while, I understood that I am also immortal. What we believe in is what is… and I choose to believe that we are all connected, we have the same source and we are energy. I finally get what Wayne Dyer meant when he said We are spiritual beings having a human experience… finally! And there’s more to come. Always.
It’s on its way! (Wayne Dyer)